Hello! So, we gave our cats away, I am kind of being mentally better, and my mom trusts me to be left alone when she goes out to her new business, whic, as of now, is not thriving. Although, I do wish the best for her. Since this website looks too much tinted, I might change the CSS of this a bit, not much, just some changes to the colors and stuff. That's all for now.


Starting today, i will try to change and take a break online for now. I'll try updating this more frequently but I'm a bit busy. So what happened? Well, I moved into my nw house and I love it already. The only thing I don't like is how it's really messy and stuff. Also, there is a new cat trying to go into our house. It would be fine, but the cat looks like it has mange on its ears and my mom doesn't want my other cats to get infected. So there's that. Oh and also, i tried to plant in our garden, and I betted that if at least one of them would sprout, I would have to reanimate one of my animation memes. And guess what? Two sunflowers sprouted. Haha, you know what happens with that now. So yeah, aside from that nothing much. I couldn't go to school because my school is afraid of my well-being and stuff, so I'm stuck here at home. Which sucks because I just thought of a cool idea to write down notes. That's all for now.


Belated Happy New Year everybody! Here's a cool list I made yesterday but changed up some things a bit:

Current inspirations: 
- Zeruk
- CrystalCalico
- No breakdowns for at least 4 months
- Eliminate all line of 8
- Self-control
- Finish Toyhouse profiles
- Proton Gifypet!
- Digital Particle plushes
- Countryhumans shrine, particle physics shrine
- Other Gifypet particles
- Fight! [Particulars]
- What you need [TTPI]
- Kandi Raver [gift]
- Daijobanai
- The wolf [SZ]
- I AM NOT INSANE [Photon, higgs]
- Beatophone [Theoreticals]
- Nuclear [CERN]
- Palm tree Panic
- Paws and Play
- Therefore
- Strawberry sweater
- Courtesy Call
- I'll be the Villain
- Metamorphosis
- Live another Day [philippine air force fc]
- Satisfied
Yeah, I have a lot to do. Currently, I was supposed to be working on the What you Need meme, but after a couple of advice from others I somehow got pretty demotivated to do it. I don't know, that's usually how I am. Like I am really super proud of it and then people say it needs some work, and then I no longer feel the charm I felt when I looked at the animation prior to posting it. It's weird, really. And I don't know why. I want to change it really, but I don't know how, I just have this feeling like a lot of times. I hope I could animate soon. I hope I could get to CERN.


Wow. Uhm. It's been quite a while. I also haven't written in my physical diary for ages as well. It's already the end of 2022, and that was pretty quick, looking back at it. I don't think I have done much recently, I was just buried under all my school work, and with all the pressure my mental health scrambled up and now I'm going to be homeschool... yeah, it's quite a ride. Look at my drawings page, i have drawn a lot but i didn't bother to put my recent ones there because it's fanart for a web series that doesn't want fanart being posted randomly around (no offense though). Well, at least I had a lot of fun this year, plus I think I'm mentally getting better. The problems I face don't haunt me as often as before, I'm feeling good.

As I'm writing this, I'm making minor changes to the website, which you may have already seen. There's now the About page (again), I removed a couple of buttons, plus I added another gif divider, which arguably looks much more cleaner and better than the previous one, which took quite a chunk of the screen, even if i set the size to 50%, haha.. Well, take this with a grain of salt, but I might actually return here once more. I'm not going to revamp the website, it looks perfectly fine, but I may post more here, update some pages and maybe add more, who knows? Maybe I might add lore to this website, haha, no I don't think so.

Till then, I'll just check this website every so often. Might update some things, might not. Anyway, new year's resolution of mine is that I'll mentally get better. Seems unrealistic, but that's pretty much the only thing I want for myself now. I want to get better. So, Belated Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year to all ^^


So I have this unrealistic thing I want to create. Another Countryhumans social site like countryhumans.com. What's the difference? Well, customizability is the first thing I want to aim for. You can change the colors and add images to your profile, there's a wysiwyg editor for it but also a css editor as well if you want more advanced changes, stuff like that. Maybe you can add javascript as well? The features are going to be similar to spacehey in the sense that you have groups, forums, blogs, a layout page stuff like that. You can manage multiple accounts and tag them as roleplaying as well (inspired from dreamwidth). You can also customize posts like multiverse.plus, it's going to be closely moderatedb human moderators. Yeah kinda unrealistic considering how basic my website looks, you can tell i'm not good at coding, and how young i am. I'll think of more features while browsing countryhumans.com and thinking what do they not have. I mean, they've got pages, they've got reactions, they've got groups, they've got blogs, I'm not sure what to add to make it different.. If anyone has an idea you can contact me through my socials or my chatbox, haha.


Long time no see, everyone! How am I? Well, still getting distracted a lot easily, but my parents said I'm getting a lot more better!! Since yesterday, I have updated the css of my website so that it looks less yucky and bland (it's still blander than most websites i've seen, not like I'm that creative with websites though. I'll try to update this journal much more often, so that you guys can have more content! Well, I got to go finish my homework, goodbye and have a nice day! (●'◡'●)


Today marks the day where I try to start to not use Facebook. If anyone is not aware on why am I doing this, basically, it has been taking a toll on my mental health, not only does it distract me from trying to focus on more important things, I'm also pretty much addicted to it. For some reason. Wait, I think there's a reason and it's... my friends?

I made a lot of friends on Facebook, and I'm pretty close with them. Which is why i hate the platform so much. Where would I find them if I abandon Facebook altogether? Sure, I did somehow find out about some peoples socials (which i'll hold as a red flag for myself), but I'm still worried, they'll go on without me, I'll miss a lot of things. Why am I even worrying about this in the first place. See? Now you know why?

They said I should accept the fact that people move on, but I feel, I feel like at this point I am too attached to them. I also need to learn how to move on, right? I hope that in the succeeding days, I would be able to, like, you know, improve and stuff. Cause honestly, I've been sick of my own behavior. Looking at my past actions makes me sick to my stomach. Why did I even do them? I was- and still is- stupid.

I haven't been writing in my physical journal for days, another small thing that I don't like.


Wow.. why do i keep on forgetting to post here? Is it because I have a physical journal, and that I also have a lot of accounts to post to? maybe... Well, thinking about it, that's definitely the reason aside from school.

Anyway~ I'm doing my homework now... I have a lot of things to do, and I hate it so much. Maybe it's because I'm in a science high school. I swear just knowing the fact that I study in one makes me even more stressed- but NO, I HAVE TO BE QUIET AND DO GOOD (- self, 2021). It's just- stressing me out, I had to ask for help right now because I don't understand something but i cried because i didn't understand it....

Why am I even like this? Why don't I change.... it's 4pm right now, I should get going to do my work.


Hi everyone... Long time no see... well uh, today is National Heroes day in my place, so we don't have school today. And what do I do when there's no school? Nothing, of course. Well, I mean, I AM continuing to draw Up Quark from an old file back before I was told that I shouldn't use the computer for one month.. and reviewing for my Math recitation tomorrow... but so far I'm not able to concentrate. Maybe I'll go and do that, after, like, writing this journal entry of course, so uh, yeah. That's basically all you need to know. Here's a picture in the meantime.


Okay, so basically I'm giving this website a huge revamp. However, I'm not gonna be updating all of the pages, as it is already bedtime and I'm about to shut down this computer. For now, please don't go to any page except the homepage if you don't want to see a mess of failed css.


School had just started today. We didn't do much as we are just to do some psychosocial things... I might be able to post more here now, as I've been able to bring my tablet to school, they have wifi and it's cool.


I've decided to go back to my laptop briefly to change some things, like deleting the Sciencehumans subpages and making the rose dividers smaller. I'm planning on redoing the css of this website, but just the css, everything else will be presetved.
Sciencehumans is pretty much some ch offshoot that was established because my friends thought it was a fandom so it was until i decided to gatekeep my characters and take it down, i don't think they've ever known about this website though so yeah
I deleted the website files for Sciencehumans, but I archived them anyway. I'm not sharing the url yet, also I think the guidelines page wasn't archived correctly.


So this is the first time I'm doing this HTML Journal thing. Anyway, where have I been again? Well, basically my psychiatrist said that i should take a 1 month break from my computer, so yes, I did in fact type all of this in my phone.
As of now, I'm still okay since i get to go through loopholes with this. I still get to use the wifi, and my numerous stash of phones and tablets. I uninstalled messenger and facebook from all of them, to not get distracted from them, and I think it is also good since I am able to do what I've been dreaming of for months- to get off those platforms...
However, it feels like I will return from them, who knows...
Till then, I'll be posting about my experience here.